About Life

Back then, we were unaware of what life is and how the world works, as children. Little pure souls oblivious to the dark and  difficult part of living. Everyday’s a new adventure. Everyday’s a new game to play. Tomorrow is just another day.

Slowly, life presents its true form as we get older. Tears make friends with sorrow that cannot be amend by a piece of chocolate or a fairy tale storybook. Pain is no longer a wound we can heal with a drop of iodine. Everyday is a new struggle. Tomorrow holds the promise of unpredictable destiny.

What did we imagine, as kids, about how life would be when we grow up? I guess not much of it came true.

Today, as I heard the pain and despair of one of my dearest, a mixed feeling rushed over me.

Ah, I’m not alone… Ah, life isn’t just being cruel to me… Ah, so that’s just the way it goes sometimes…

We’re the same, I know you understand me the most. The words got me prickling with unknown emotion.

I can’t determine how I could make things better for my dearest. I can’t decide what to say.

I want to say that everything will get better, because I know it will, but I don’t have the guts to do so.

Let me just give you, my dearest, something I’ve written a long time ago. It may not be the best consolation, but I know that you’ll know it’s from the heart.

my dear friend,

somehow the path we have to take can be so unpredictable. it can be straight and visible, or full of turns and heavily clouded. there are days when we glide easily through it. but once in a while we have to crawl up its dusty and rocky cliff. surprises inevitably lurking, waiting to jump on our back, forcing us to take unwanted turns.

My dear friend,

our life had stop being easy, I know. but it becomes difficult only if we let it be that way. stand straight, chin up, and face the unknown adventure it forces you to take. you may get bumps and bruises along the way, but what matters is the will for you to try. 

my dear friend,

anytime you feel overwhelmed with life, share it with me. we’ll ease it up with some laughter and good times together. whatever happens, just know that I got your back… I got your back.



[Football Talk] 2014 FA Cup: Finally!

Finally! That must’ve been what was on every Gooners mind on Saturday (or early Sunday if you’re in my timezone.) After nine painfull trophyless years, Arsenal won their 11th FA Cup title.


I was restless during the few days before the final. I have lots of faith on the team, but, with our track records in the past few years, I knew that it won’t be easy. And that was what happened. During the first 13 minutes of the game, when we were 2-0 down, my heart sunk. I started to imagine the worst case scenario. Arsenal seemed to always get caught in a tangled web of misfortune on important games.
A tiny bit of hope emerged after Santi Cazorla’s amazing free kick. But it stil wasn’t enough to calm my nerves. The lads were amazingly patient in building their attacks. But Hull City was also smart enough to know how to block them.
When Laurent Koscielny somehow managed to turn around and get the ball in around the 70th minutes mark, the hope grew. “We can make it,” I said to myself.
Yaya Sanogo made me nervous again. My personal opinion of him is that he needs more experience. He  To me, he looked a bit awkward on the pitch and couldn’t really control the ball (It’s only my personal opinion.) Until Aaron came along with that beautiful winning goal. I felt assured that we could do it, although I knew that the danger isn’t over yet. That moment when Per fell and Fabianski moved forward? It almost got my heart leaped out of my throat!
When the final whistle was heard, I’m sure all Gooners felt the same, a wave of relieve and happiness washed over me. I was almost brought to tears to see the Boss smilling. It’s been a while since the last time he smiles so brightly.

To me, this victory is the beginning of something bigger, the beginning of a comeback. It made me believe even more that Arsenal still got what it takes to be a big team that competes for big titles. It put an end to our nine years of agony. Plus it’s an amazing birthday present 😀

Will it put to rest all of that bad and hideous headlines that the press often targeted Arsenal with? Maybe, but maybe not. The boss said that with this victory, we forced them to be more creative and that he’s sure they will be. Nicely said, Boss!
Well, I hope that this FA Cup title will mark the comeback of a stronger and better Arsenal. May this be only the beginning.
Cheers to all Gooners!


Hit by the Korean Wave: I’m Guilty as Charged

All things Korea is huge these days. Millions of K-drama, K-Pop and K-food lovers emerged overnight. And I’m one of them. I admit that the the Korean wave has hit me, and it has hit me hard. People say I’m too old for these stuff, people say that someone like me shouldn’t be into it in the first place, but I don’t care. I don’t like it just because everybody else like it. I like it because I like it.

The Korean addiction (should I say addiction? If it’s too harsh a word please forgive me) began around seven years ago. There was this Korean drama called Princess Hours or Goong. The main casts weren’t really the out-of-this world pretty and handsome, but it wasn’t really about the stars back then for me. Yoon Eun Hye doesn’t look like SNSD’s Tae Yeon or  f(x)’s Crystal. Joo Ji Hoon is definitely not Lee Joon or Kang Min Hyuk. But the drama is so funny and fresh that I somehow couldn’t get my eyes off of the Television screen.


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Then after that, along came other dramas. There was My Girl (Lee Dong Wook and Lee Da Hae), Prince’s Hours (Se7en and Park Shin Ye), Coffee Prince (Gong Yoo and Yoon Eun Hye) and many many more. I watched drama after drama, fascinated by the storyline, the casts and everything in it.

Strike one.

In every single Korean drama, there would be at least one scene where the cast is eating something with gusto. They look like they enjoy what they’re eating so much that it got me craving for it. Thus, the hunt of Korean cuisine began. I love cooking and I am often curious about how food is made. So, in order to get familiar with the taste of Korean cuisine, I ordered several kinds of them from a cheap but delicious little joint called Gansikjib. Then, I started to try making them at home.

I enjoy eating kimchi, always have them in the fridge. I love tteokkpokki, with extra cheese. I adore doenjang jigae. I really really enjoy eating hoddeok for my afternoon snack. And the list goes on and on and on and on….

This HODDEOK image taken from my blog, food-experimentalist.blogspot

This HODDEOK image taken from my blog, food-experimentalist.blogspot.com

Until this very day, I can’t stop doing it, even share some of the recipes that I modified with available ingredients and Indonesian taste bud on my food experiment blog (yes, I do have other blogs).

Strike two.

I once mentioned that, up until two years ago, I’m not really someone who love Korean variety program. Several of my friends already busy talking about Running Man, Family Outing or Invisible Youth, but I had no interest whatsoever. Then 2 Days 1 Night came knocking on my door and I’ve hooked on it ever since. My love of the show made me open up to watch other Korean varieties and talk shows. Running Man, Happy Together, Gag Con (Madam Jeong, why do you have to end your skit???), We Got Married (Poca Guri and Jinwoon Junhee couple!), Weekly Idol and Win Win (stopped airing last year, soooooo sad) are some of the shows I sometimes watch, when the guests are interesting for me. Thanks to KBSW channel on YouTube, I can also watch things like Entertainment Weekly with their famous Guerrilla Interview and know the latest news of Korean celebrities.

Strike three.


Image copied from 1 Night 2 Days Season 3 Tumblr

We Got Married Image copied from www.soompi.com

We Got Married
Image copied from http://www.soompi.com

When it comes to Korean Music aka K-Pop, my version of it back then was only Korean drama OST. I had no idea what the lyric was about, who the singer was, what the title of the song was, just as long as it’s a nice song to listen to (mostly ballad, I love ballad) and reminded me of the drama, I would definitely put it in my music player.

A couple of years ago, one of my best friends introduced me to Sung Si Kyung, the Prince of Ballad. I love it. Then I started to open my heart for other Korean singers or group that I’ve only heard the name before but never heard even one single song. The first is Koyote.

If you’ve read my previous posts, by now you would know that I’m a huge fan of Kim Jong Min. The funny man turned out to be the leader of one of the longest running trio in Korean music history, Koyote. Their music is more to the happy disco kind of style, but I listened to them anyway, at first only because of Jong Min. After listening to almost all of their songs, I found plenty that I love, such as Did You Even Love Me, Uri Sagwija, and Apado.

Koyote's latest album, 1999 Image copied from www.popgasa.com

Koyote’s latest album, 1999
Image copied from http://www.popgasa.com

Next, the very same best friend that introduced me to 1N2D and Sung Si Kyung got me listen to Beast. Oh my, I’m in love. Back in the 90’s, where boybands were thriving and ruling the world, I was a sucker for pretty boys singing pretty songs. With Beast, I found my way back to those days. I love almost every single song they sing. My favorite is definitely their latest album, How to Love. The talented Mister Yong Jun Hyung wrote and composed great songs that immediately made me head over heels for them. When it Rains, Shadow, How to Love, When I Miss You, Will You Be Alright, I’m Sorry, Clenching Fist were the songs that I listen to almost everyday. You got that, almost every day. I can’t get enough of them… especially Yoon Dujun, the leader. Okay, I’m a little biased because he’s also a football freak like me, but I like him, really. Love watching his latest drama, Let’s Eat. Such a funny guy.

Beast Image copied from www.bntnews.co.uk

Image copied from http://www.bntnews.co.uk

Other than the two groups, I’ve listened and enjoyed a bunch of other singers and groups. Although I may not be a fan, but if they have one or several songs that I like, I will undoubtedly listen to them. I’m listening to songs from Xia Junsu, 2NE1, MBLAQ, Baek Ji Young, K-Will, Clazziquai Project, Urban Zakapa, Jung Jun Young and many more. Even one of my friends from college, a fellow Korean lovers, were amazed when my knowledge of K-Pop tripled within six months of the last time we met. My latest soundtrack of life, other than Koyote and Beast, are Standing Egg and Park Se Young plus Soyu and Junggigo. Both duo got some pretty awesome, easy listening music.

Strike… hey, no more strike. I’m guilty as charged in getting hit by the Korean wave. This may or may not last a long time in me, but I really, truly enjoy it. Mind you, this doesn’t mean that I’m forgetting who I am. No, no, no. Don’t mistaken me for that. I am and will always be an Indonesian girl (or woman? whatever works for you. I prefer girl.). I am and will always be a Sundanese girl. I live and breath in Indonesia, speak Indonesian, eat Indonesian food and call Indonesia my home. I just happens to be an Indonesian girl who love Korean stuff *wink.


1 Night 2 Days Now and Then Part 2: The New Season So Far

I remember how the rumor went crazy during the last few weeks of season 2, when it was confirmed that season 2 would end and season 3 would soon start. Who’s gonna stay for season 3? Who would be the new faces? Celebrities unfamiliar to me were mentioned. Some denied and some confirmed, until finally, rather than the usual 7 members, 6 guys made it to the final cut.

“Yaaaay, Kim Jong Min’s still there!” was my first reaction. As long as he stays, I’ll be happy. Then the unexpected news of Cha Tae Hyun staying were confirmed. I kind of like it that they both stay, because I think towards the end of season 2 the two guys bonded quite well. They has become frenemies, sometimes the would be friends and sometimes they fought silly.


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The new guys, on the other hand, were unfamiliar to me. Wait… no, let me say that again. The new guys, on the other hand, were not quite familiar to me. I’ve seen Defconn several times hosting Weekly Idol. Along with Jeong Hyeong Don (or was it Donnie?) he made a funny pair of host. Thus, I’m looking forward to see him in 1N2D, especially after hearing that he’s always been a big fan of the show. The other new member I’ve seen before was Kim Jun Ho. Although the name wasn’t familiar to me, but after seeing his picture, I realized that I’ve seen him several times in old episodes of Gag Con and Happy Together. A gag man, surely he would be funny, right? The two last members I heard their names and saw their faces for the first time. Jung Jun Young… who’s this maknae? A rocker? A singer? Never heard of him. Kim Jun Hyuk… who?

The time finally come for the first episode. After all the introduction was over, waking up the members and fooling them with eel sauce coffee, the new journey of season 3 embarked. Boy, I was blown away. Defconn, Kim Jun Ho and Jung Jun Young went at it right away. Conie and Jun Ho were guaranteed to be funny and they didn’t disappoint. Conie worshiped the show so much that he’s ready for just about anything and familiar with just about anything. The maknae, Jung Jun Young, surprised the hail out of me with his clever tricks and comments. I was told that it’s his first time in such variety, that he’s a new celebrity from a singer competition, but he’s so natural that I thought he’s an experienced gag man or something. He’s a little annoying at times, but I think he’s annoyingly cute and funny. It’s refreshing to see the maknae not just good in being cute but also not afraid to stand against his hyungs. The look on Kim Jun Ho’s face whenever Jun Young pulled a trick or blurted out unexpected comments gave me so much laughter my tummy hurts. The oldest, Kim Jun Hyuk, didn’t look like he’s going to be funny at first. After two or three episodes, he turned out to be awkwardly cute. I think Tae Hyun’s unlucky strike rubbed in on him. Tae Hyun’s pretty lucky so far in season 3, miraculously, and Jun Hyuk failed time and time again. In the last few episodes, when he blushed whenever the maknae writer, Seul Ki, is around was too funny. I like it. In an interview with Entertainment Weekly, he said he’s thrown away the actor image and every single good image he had for 1N2D. And, honestly, I’m glad that he did.


Image copied from 1 Night 2 Days Season 3 Tumblr

There are little things that I’m not quite fond of in this season’s 1N2D. It was the 3G and LTE team. At first, it was pretty funny. 3G being named 3G because the members, Jong Min Jun Ho and Jun Hyuk, often had muscle cramps (the pronounciation of 3G and muscle cramps is similar in Korean). But later on, it’s obvious that they couldn’t compete with LTE. Conie got strength, Jun Young got brain and luck, and Tae Hyun, amazingly, got even luckier. While 3G, one member is old and weak, one member is younger and weak, one member is even younger and even weaker. All three members of the 3G don’t have much luck in anything. So it’s pretty frustrating at times to see them losing and losing. I wish they would just cut off the 3G and LTE or just do it occasionally.

Ratings been great. 1N2D managed to go to the top of the Sunday night program ratings for 2 weeks in a row now. I sincerely hope it’ll only gets better and better from here.

Overall, I really enjoy 1 Night 2 Days season 3 so far. I won’t say that it’s better than season 2 or season 1. I think every season has its own charm and funny side. It’s incomparable. Whether it’s season 2 or season 3, I love them all. This show is one Sunday night entertainment that I’d always look forward to every week.

1 Night 2 Days, Fighting!!!


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1 Night 2 Days Now and Then Part 1: Reminiscing the Old Days

*This post is just my personal opinion of the show 😉

It was early 2012 when one of my best friends introduced me to this show. Back then I wasn’t really a fan of Korean Variety. I’ve watched a few episodes of Running Man and couldn’t really enjoy it. But it was different when I laid my eyes on 1 Night 2 Days. Was it the Joo Won factor? (I was really fond of him back then. Now… still fond of him, but not overly fond). Was it the Korean tourist sites factor? Or was it the Korean food factor? Until today I’m not sure what. What I’m sure of is that from the first episode that I watched, I’ve falling in love with it, grow fonder everyday and now I’ve become one huge fan.

Now, two years later, I’ve witnessed the show go into transformation more than once and in more than one way. But first. let’s talk about Season 2.


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I’ve read a couple of blog posts and too many comments that said they are disappointed in season 2. They said season 2 was lacking the friendship bond that season 1 has. To me, who only watched several episodes of season 1 but never missed one single episodes of season 2, I couldn’t relate to the comments at all. Season 2 looks fine to me. The members were funny, getting along just fine and looks pretty solid despite little bumps every now and then. Individually they are funny in their own way.

The three seniors, Kim Jong Min, Lee Su Geun and Uhm Tae Wung were undoubtedly funny with their own distinctive character. As a senior comedian, I think Su Geun managed to lead the whole show without being too overwhelming. His game and gag ideas were fresh and fun to watch.

Uhm Tae Wung may look a little awkward and didn’t talk much, but in his own way he managed to still the show sometimes. Towards the end of the season he’s even funnier. I remember his answer to the question ‘the sound of laugh’. He laughed “kyo…kyo…kyo…” and said that his grandmother laughed that way so that her dentures wouldn’t fall out. It echoed in my head for days! My best friend and I ended up calling the show kyokyo.

Last but not least, the variety genius, Kim Jong Min (my absolute favorite, love him so very much), with his silly and goofy manner is so lovable. Although my heart often ached watching him lost in games and suffered the punishments, but 1n2d wouldn’t be the same without him.


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Meanwhile, the four new guys, Kim Seung Woo, Sung Si Kyung, Joo Won and Cha Tae Hyun added some color into the show. Yes, I agreed to the comments that Sung Si Kyung and Joo Won were sometimes too eager to maintain their Ballad Prince and Cool Actor image, but there were times where the contrast of their personality with other members were pretty enjoyable to watch. The serious Sung lawyer who battled with Bird PD were often annoying, but the PD reaction were too funny. Joo Won relied too much on his aegyo maknae side, but sometimes I think it works too. Kim Seung Woo was the oldest, and he’s funny just because of that. I found his body gags hilarious! And all of it wouldn’t be complete without the misfortune streak that Cha Tae Hyun suffered. Bottom line, I think these seven guys worth my time every single week.

Image copied from joowonenglish.wordpress.com

Image copied from joowonenglish.wordpress.com

The departure of Kim Seung Woo broke my heart. My best friend and I cried watching his last episodes. Something was totally missing when he’s gone. I’m sure quite a few people agreed with this.

However, the arrival of Yoo Hae Jin added a kick to 1N2D. He couldn’t replace Seung Woo in my heart, but he was a valuable new member, no doubt about it. He clicked with Lee Su Geun right away, producing funny gag scenes throughout the show. They both were really natural at it and it successfully got me laughing my tummy off.

Image copied from 1n2d Tumblr

Image copied from 1n2d Tumblr

When they announced that Joo Won were quitting the show, I felt so disappointed. Sadly, not because I thought I was gonna lose him when he’s gone, but because after Kim Seung Woo gone why would there be another departure? “This isn’t right,” I thought. Then several weeks later, all hell broke lose. It is said that another member were going to quit the show. I got frustrated and scared. I was scared that the show might be endangered of being cancelled. All the speculations of who’s quitting and who’s not got all the fans crazy. There were even rumors of Kim Jong Min fed up with the show and refused to continue being the member. Argh! Anyone but him, please.

Then, during the last few episodes of the show, the major last blow came from Lee Su Geun. Him being investigated by the police and found guilty really put season 2 to its end. I was sad, really really sad. One wrong choice and he faced legal prosecution and up to now is banned from tv stations.

Watching the very last episode of season 2 was like a roller coaster ride of emotion for me. Tears ran down my cheeks, reminiscing all the previous episodes got my heart ached, losing a Sunday night entertainment made me really sad. I never thought I can get so attached to a variety show that I even cried because of it. Although it was a relief to know Kim Jong Min is staying for another season, but still, it created a big empty hole in my heart when season 2 ended.


Image copied from 1 Night 2 Days Season 2 Facebook Page

With pain in my heart after saying goodbye to season 2, I braced myself to face season 3 with hopes that it would at least be as entertaining as season 2.

Phew, this post turned out longer than I planned for. Let’s just stop here for now and continue with season 3 on the next post, shall we?


[Football Talk] Aaron Ramsey: The One Who Refuse to Give Up


Aaron Ramsey…
Prior to this season, what did I think of him?

1. That he is, by far, the most handsome Arsenal player.
2. … I think I’ll go back to number one.

Yup, not much I could say about him back then. Even though he’s really handsome and all, he wasn’t actually an Arsenal player that I enjoyed watching. I even felt a lurch in my stomach everytime he got into the starting XI or came in as a subtitute player. Why is that? In my humble opinion, he often loses the ball too easily. At crucial moments, I saw him lose ball posessions to opponents that ended up into a goal scoring chance or even a goal.
I often prayed, whenever the scoreline was thin and was endanger of tipping over for Arsenal, that the boss wouldn’t let Aaron play. You know how the boss loves to do a substitution on the 70th minutes or so? That’s when I started praying.

Look at him this season. To me, it’s as if Aaron is a completely different person. As the boss, the media and even Aaron himself put it, he is now a lot more confident in front of the goal. Agree. Totally agree with it.
The season is only halfway through, but Aaron has already scored 8 goals! Before this season, it took him five whole years to create five goals. Spot the progress?
Since Aaron made his transformation, Arsenal’s midfield has been dangerous. The work of Mesut Öezil, Aaron, Jack Wilshere and Santi Cazorla put on the midfield has been one of the finest I’ve seen so far in Arsenal in the past couple of years.

No one would’ve thought that Aaron can come back even stronger like this. Not after the broken leg he suffered a couple of years ago. I mean, come on, a leg is the most treasured part of the body for a football player. Having it injured, letalone broken, must be pretty devastating. But, apparently, not for Aaron. He just refuses to give up.

And look where it got Arsenal? Top of the league for several weeks and running.

These past two weeks, I’ve seen a little deteriorarion on Arsenal’s performance. Yes, maybe the players are tired due to the hectic schedule. Maybe, just maybe, Arsenal’s old sworn enemy, the inconsistency, come back to haunt them. But I do hope that the team, with the confidence they have shown this season, will be able to pull through and give the club a brighter future.

So, right now, what can I say about Aaron?

1. He is, by far, the most handsome Arsenal player.
2. He is an amazing football player.



Question: How far would you respect a commitment?

In relationship, among friends and even at work, commitment is the one thing that always came up or being questioned. When a boyfriend kept his girl waiting for him to pop the question, everyone starts wondering whether he has commitment issues. When one bestfriend lied to the other and got caught doing so, people starts saying that the bestfriend who lied isn’t a loyal friend a.k.a didn’t respect their friendship commitment. When an employee starts looking for other jobs, attending job interviews and such, the employer would think that the employee didn’t commit to the company and should not be working for them anymore.
It easy for me to state those examples. Not so easy when I’m faced with a commitment issues of my own.

Back to the question. How far would you respect a commitment? I, in my own delusional kind of way, think that commitment is something of high importance therefore needs to be respected no matter what. Sadly.. the other part doesn’t think so. I’m trying so hard to respect it but somehow I feel like I’m the bad guy.

In respecting a commitment, how far would you give the other part some slack? “Oh, he has that so I have to understand.”; “Oh, she’s busy with this so I have to wait.”; The other part seems to underestimate the commitment we’ve made, yet how come I feel like I’m the bad guy?

Even a simple promise is an example of a commitment made between two people. When one hold tightly to it and the other just say and forget, which one is the bad guy?

How come a commitment is reduced into just words we say and not something we respect and do?

Ah… this world is becoming even more random than I thought it has….